Lesson learned​

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Never knew how much time it really takes

To mend an aching heart, let in love again

You turned to me like you’d never done before

I was wrapped up in myself and i just ignored

The pain we feel inside

When the ones we love pass by

 

Shouted excuses as i watched you walk away

But then i realized there was nothin left to say

In a friendship lost there was a lesson learned

I grew to accept what i hadn’t earned

The trust that i once knew

It turned and walked away with you

 

And how it felt like rain was falling down on me

And fogging up the windows of my soul

And how it felt like rain was falling down

And soaking me right to the bone

When shame came and filled me

 

My search for explaination 

Thought me a thing or two

That sometimes letting go is all that we can do

Well it took some time but i learned to pretend

That the past lay in the past 

And i was on the mend

The days moved on but just a few

Were without a thought of you

 

The lessons that i learned

I am sure i won’t forget

And knew ones will haunt me

There are lots of lessons left

 

 

 

 

Sweet rain​

 

What time of year is it now

When the flowers are blooming

Though the clouds they are moving so fast

What time of year is it now

When the birds they fly south

Though the suns just about to shine

There’s confusion in the air, an emptiness out there

As if we’ve forgot

That simple things are what bring joy 

Like standing outside

When the clouds turn to grey

 

And let that sweet, sweet rain fall down

And let that sweet, sweet rain fall down

And let that sweet, sweet rain fall down on me

 

Mother nature is crying

And we all sit there trying to not hear

And peace, love and understanding

Have become old fashioned

Ideals have greyed with age

But there is a heart inside and it has no pride

Knows only too well

What we seek we can not buy 

Yes, it’s hard, is this life but it’s here to live

 

Let that sweet, sweet rain fall down

And let that sweet, sweet rain fall down

 

When faith it leaves me i stand out and look

Up to the heavens as they open up 

And pour themselves on me        

 

 

 

 

Kitchen window​

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The wind is playing with that big old tree

And the leaves are swaying

Weighed down with memories

Some good, some bad, all a part of here

The neighbour’s shaking the sleep from his duvet

And there’s lots of screaming

As the kids outside they play

Mine there somewhere among them

 

And my kitchen window is a source of light

It reminds me that we’re all out there

Juggling joy and strife

And that we should keep smiling

 

The coloured shutters and the cries of horny cats

The groups of mothers they sit around and chat

They care and share, stick together

Look upon on a village

With all its pros and cons

From my kitchen window

My home this has become

No seas to cross, to get there

 

And my kitchen window is a source of light

It reminds me that we’re all out there

Juggling joy and strife

And that we should keep smiling

And my kitchen window won’t let me forget

That a helping hand isn’t that far away

And not to give up yet

And my kitchen window is a source of light

It reminds me that we’re all out there

Juggling joy and strife

And that we should keep smiling

 

 

 

 

Face in the dirt​

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I’ve asked myself so many times why can i sing

Which nose upon the finishing line is going to win

Is it luck or fate that marks the path

Because it seems unfair

That we’re laughing loud over here

While they’re crying over there

Well i just wonder who decides

With which tools we go through life

 

Have we got an answer, just got to answer

 

All these questions 

Before i go and 

Justify this pain on earth

Why should you go and not i go

Tired and hungry, face in the dirt

 

Shirley this world just ain’t that cold

Is what they say to me

Oh but they’re dropping like flies

While we’re living our lives in constant apathy

Because if we look we might disturb

What is better left unheard

 

This we’ve got to question, just got to question

 

All these answers 

And still i don’t know

What justifies this pain on earth

Why should you go and not i go

Tired and hungry face in the dirt

 

I want to hold you in my arms, a rich mans cure

How could we do such harm to a heart so pure

 

 

 

 

You’ll stay​

 

Did i ever wonder what life would be like without 

Did i ever see my life through the eyes of someone like u

Did i ever hear that sinking sound

That could make me scream so out loud

Should i stay, should i go, i can’t say

Just relax because i know

It’s all ok

This won’t turn out to be a bad dream

Between you and i things are exactly as they might seem

Our days are full of ups and downs

Of endless fights and party clowns

It’s when the doubts start to show

That i get scared

There just there though i know

It’s as plain as day

 

When i see you, i see me

And all the things this love could grow to be

In this heart, in this soul of mine

You’ll stay

 

Inside me there’s a voice that says let it go

A love like this no one like you will ever know

But we’ve loved and we’ve laughed 

‘til our sides they ached

And we’ve kissed and we’ve cried

And we’re only getting warmed up

 

When i see you, i see me

And all the things this love could grow to be

In this heart, in this soul of mine

You’ll stay

 

 

 

 

Storm in a teacup​

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Tongues are tied, face the colour of a winter freeze

All the joy left in your heart is paralized, what do u do?

Stay where you’ve been for sixteen years

Or take the plunge into the new

I don’t know what do you do

Left with a girl who stood by you through thick & thin

Won’t disert you, still protects you

Dispite the mess you’ve got her in

Across the waters there’s a child 

Growing in another womb

I don’t know, what do you do?

 

Never seen you shaken, so hungry, tired and mixed up

This story isn’t changing into a storm in a teacup

 

Whats waiting for you?

You know that things will have to change

Whats eating at you?

You search the wreckage for remains

Of what you once thought this could be

A chance that you might just get it back

Hold on to hope or set it free

Both thoughts are sullen and both are black

I don’t know, what do you do?

 

Two years on the story still remains the same

A heave and ho between two sides 

No winners just weird mind games

In the middle there’s a child 

Loved totally by both of you

I don’t know, what do you do?

 

You’ve started separating 

The bad stuff from the good stuff

But this story still isn’t changing 

Into a storm in a teacup

 

 

 

 

Me and my old self

 

Maybe you know my name

Would you recognise this old face again

‚cos there’s this thing thats inside of me

And when it jumps out it alters how i seem

So hold on to the physical

It’s all that you’ll have to make you sure it’s me

Thats being so cold and irrational

To all that i love and all who might love me

 

Me and my old self, landmine laying it’s true

And just by being my old self i just do what we people do

 

So many ways we can say goodbye

To those who have tried to share the load

But me, and i can’t explain why

I draw a kick that tends to help clear the road

 

Oh me and my old self, landmine laying it’s true

Me and my old self don’t know what else to do

Me being my old self won’t seperate me from you

But me being my old self is all that, all that i can do

 

So if i’ve hurt you in any way

The deeper the wound the more you mean to me

I learn a little along the way

So forgive me for not being all i could be

 

Oh me and my old self, landmine laying it’s true

Me and my old self don’t know what else to do

Me being my old self won’t seperate me from you

But me being my old self is all that, all that i can do

 

 

 

 

Washing day

 

Can’t stop now and chat, 

It’s thursday afternoon that’s washing day

Use soap and water. Might help wash my sins away

Brush strands of worn out hair

From my sweating brow and ask myself

What’s the difference 

Between washing day and hell

 

But i won’t back down; no i’ll stand my ground

Oh i’ll walk back down; yes i’ll stand my ground

 

One kid in my arms and 

One that won’t stop dangling off my leg

Would i know me

If i looked  up on me through 

The visions that i once had for myself

Soaring high on my flying pedestal

 

Chorus

 

Oh i sometimes doubt the life i picked out for me

Oh but when i see those faces when they see me

No stage, no song, nothing ever compares

No love, no life as fulfilling as theirs

 

Chorus

 

Can’t stop now and chat it’s thursday afternoon, that’s washing day

 

 

 

 

My way up to heaven

 

 

Oh time, there are days when you are unfair

I can search, high and low but i can’t find you anywhere

And dreams, my companions in the dark

When i can’t see the road you’re my guiding spark

 

And on my way up to heaven

Or on my way down to hell

Will these earthly traits just disappear

And leave all i’ve known so well

 

Oh fear, how you’ve pulled so many strings

So often stepped in to ruin everything

And love, how you’ve warmed me in the cold

 

And on my way up to heaven

Or on my way down to hell

Will these earthly traits just disappear

And leave all i’ve known so well

 

Will it wake me or just creep up behind me and take me

Will it give me a chance to mend my wicked ways

Say goodbye and make amends

Let me know when my road ends

 

And on my way up to heaven

Or on my way down to hell

Will i slowly fade and disappear

From this place i love so well

 

 

 

 

A hundred miles from you

 

Hey baby, write a song, could write a song for you.

Hey baby, packed full with the little things that are you

I know every line, every bump, scratch, freckle on your sweet skin

But whats in that mind

Thats as old as you’re young 

But still allow me to share some wisdom

 

​, i’ll be a hundred miles from you

​, you’ll see enough to get you through

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Hey baby, how many times have you been on this earth before

Hey baby, just keep a look out

But sometimes i think you know every line

Every bump, scratch, freckle on this earths skin

But whats in the mind

Thats as old as your young

Allow her to share her wisdom.

 

​, i’ll be a hundred miles from you

​, you’ll see enough to get you through

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The lakes of Ponchartrain

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T’was on one fine march morning

That i bid new orleans adieu

And i took on road to jackson town my fortune to renew

I cursed all foreign money no credit could i gain

Which left me heart a-longing for,

The lakes of Ponchartrain

 

I stepped on board a railroad car

Beneath the morning sun

We rode the road ‚til evening time

`til i laid me down again

No stranger would befriend me

Until a dark girl towards me came

And i fell in love with my creole girl

By the lakes of Ponchartrain

 

She took me into her mother’s house

And treated me right well

The hair upon her shoulders in jet black ringlets fell

To try and paint her beauty, i knew t’would be in vain

So handsome was my creole girl

By the lakes of Ponchartrain

 

I asked her if she’d marry me,

She said that could never be

For she had got a lover and he was far out at sea

She said that she would wait for him and true that she would remain

`til he returned to his creole lass

On the shores of the Ponchartrain

 

So fare- thee – well my creole girl,

I never will see you more

But i won’t forget your kindness in the cottage by the shore

And at each social gathering a flowing glass i’ll drain

And i’ll drink a health to my creole girl

On the banks of the Ponchartrain

And i’ll drink a health to my creole girl

By the lakes of Ponchartrain