
Lyrics
Chaos of love
I will be different, improve on my mother
We all have said this at one time or another
We loudly proclaim we’ll do good on her bad
With all of the arrogance innocence has
And the first time we see them, our child in this world
In a breathtaking moment of life we are hurled
Into chaos and love that we’ll come to know
Will take us to places we don’t want to go
And our history haunts us almost everyday
As we hear ourselves say what our mothers would say
All the words that we swore we’d never use
Though we battle our demons we so often loose
Cause the wheel it turns and turns
The same thing we all yearn, love, love, love
Oh and where is the love that we promised to show
Where’s the understanding, the patience, the loving embrace
That we want our children to feel
We admit our defeat and then we begin to heal
When we see that our love is no bigger than hers
In a breathtaking moment her life it unfurled
She got lost in the chaos of love just like me
She couldn’t be all that she wanted to be
I bow my head gently because now I know
That all mothers were children once and wanted to grow
And the steps that we take may be small, all the same
Each little step slowly leads us to change
If my daughter decides to have kids of her own
When she tries to improve on all that I did wrong
May she never give up, one day come to see
That all mothers try mothering perfectly
Lay our weapons down
If I lay my weapons down, will you lay down yours?
Can I feel safe here now?
We’ve been on all the rides
Used up all our chips
Playing on love’s fairground
The drama isn’t gone
though we are done contemplating on who’s to blame for what
Thank God we’re done with that, done with all that pain
And still you fight
I know I fight too
Whose honor do I defend
When I try to bend and break you down
My heart it is on the mend
And so much of that depends on you
So lay your weapons down
And I will lay down mine, too
We can keep what’s in the past
And see how long we’ll last
Or we can let it go
We’re not beyond and not above the other side of love
That we have come to know
But there’s so much that is right
So many battles you and I no longer need to fight
But still we carry on, still we carry on
I know you try
You know I try, too
Whose honor do I defend
When I try to break and bend you down
My heart it is on the mend
And so much of that depends on you
So lay your weapons down
And I can lay down mine, too
River
Daylight starts creeping in
When this soul’s song begins to sing
Listen to its tender words
Give it flight now, this faithful bird
Grey clouds, they slip away
When this music begins to play
Know now, it is not me
It is a river that must run free
Come doubts, come fear
Come words to a song
This river keeps flowing
It keeps flowing on
Forces, always at play
Making sure I don’t loose my way
Choice is no longer mine
I have learned that along the line
Come doubts, come fear
Come words to a song
This river keeps flowing
It keeps flowing on
Freely, I carry on
Sharing with you my simple song
And when they come into flow
All my doubts I can just let go
Come doubts, come fear
Come words to a song
This river keeps flowing
It keeps flowing on
Come doubts, come fear
Come words to a song
This river it keeps flowing on
Take it back
Here in this land we have rivers of gold
The standards are high and the money is old
Where everything costs an arm and a leg
And everyone works until they drop dead
You learn to ignore all the needs you might have
Don’t question the fact that they’re driving you mad
Just go with the flow for fear you might drown
And build up a world that is sure to fall down
I sometimes wonder why people lie
Choose to go under and not to try and find what’s theirs to find
And take it back
You know you’ve enough but you still want more
The worst thing to be in a rich land is poor
Defining yourself by all that you own
Ignoring the shame that is growing and growing
You work and you work but it’s never enough
But here in this land no one ever gives up
You know you must march, all march in time
We’ve all got a spot on the assembly line
Waltz of life
Those nights they are dark
They are dark and they’re cold
I breathe and I watch and I try to keep hold
On what I know, I know
On what I know
Reason it fails and worry begins
Can’t find an escape from this trap that I’m in
Or these memories
Because I still see you there in my arms
I still hear you scream
I still see you there in my arms
Doing the waltz of life with me
Sleep has become a long lost friend
And laughter a thing I can only pretend
But cannot feel
Broken am I and this heart of mine
Blind to this laughing, this dancing boy
When the nights are dark
When the nights are cold
Because I still see you there in my arms
I still hear you scream
I still see you there in my arms
Doing the waltz of life with me
Homecoming
Your bags are packed the taxi’s here to meet you
It’s been a while since I have slept alone
The space your absence gives me I’ll gladly take
But only ‘cause it won’t be long
Until your homecoming
At times like this it feels like we’re still lovers
Who hang on every word the other says
The butterflies are dancing and I can barely wait
To hold you in my arms again
At your homecoming
I would go through all of it again
Start where you and I, we were just friends
So many years ago, so little did I know
That all my years with you would feel
Like a homecoming
Not giving up
What is this, this madness or is it just me?
Or does madness preside over all families
Oh we’re never in shortage of fists or of fights
But solutions I search for and can’t seem to find
‘He did it’, ‘No she did!’, ‘ I didn’t, I swear!’
Turn my back for two seconds she’s pulling his hair
And the cat is still hungry, meows out for more
As I gather up tufts of brown hair off the floor
And I swear I can’t take any more
But I’m not giving up, not giving up
Oh the digital war, it is fought every day
With threats and with warnings, I keep it at bay
As I gather up ‘i’ that’s and ‘i’ this’s too
And I swear that I’ve had it, had it with you two
I missed it when puberty walked in the door
Oh just when I thought I can’t take anymore
Well at least she has managed to make up her mind
that I haven’t a clue almost all of the time
When there’s fault then it has to be mine
But I’m not giving up, not giving up
We walk together now, there are no signs
Through wind and weather how we’ll survive
I admit freely there’s much I’ve done wrong
Me, I’m just learning as I go along
But a smile on my face I’ll always have
When I think of my family, although we’re all mad
Reason
The horizon on a cold day
And those wild west-coast winds
How they blow me away
Do I miss them?
We’ll, give a guess
When I close my eyes
I can feel them on my chest
The reason I left is the reason I cannot go back
Over there I get lost and here somehow
I manage to stay on track
Oh it’s sad but it’s true and
I wish it were different but it’s not
Suppose missing the wind’s a small price
for what I’ve got
And the ocean on a wet day
As black as black
And still the children play in her waters
To spite the cold
Making memories for when they
When they are old
The reason I left is the reason I cannot go back
Over there I get lost and here
somehow I manage to stay on track
Oh it’s sad but it’s true and
I wish it were different but it’s not
Suppose missing the wind and missing the waves
And missing the rain that holds on for days
Suppose missing it all is the price for what I’ve got
For a while
Come to me my darling
Lay your hand in mine
Sit with me in comfort
And just forget time
What tomorrow brings
Is a whole day away
So for a while, for a while
Just breathe in and out
There’s nothing except now
There’s nothing you can loose
And nothing you must choose
How these quiet moments
Are the ones that are few
Days and nights are full
Of all the things we should do
But on this fair evening
Leave it all aside
And for a while, for a while
Just breathe in and out
There’s nothing except now
There’s nothing you can loose
And nothing you must choose
What would our love say now if it were watching?
Stand aside and watch the tide a-changing
Against its flow we seem to swim these days
The solid ground we once stood on is fading
It turns to sand a little everyday
What would our love say now if it were watching?
It used to keep us safe within its arms
I look into your eyes and see a stranger
Someone who just hurts me as a rule
Our words have left us deaf to one another
And blind to all the things we’ve gotten through
What would our love say now if it were watching?
Most likely turn and bow its head in shame
What would our love say now if it were watching?
As you and I, we both give up again
Are we going to let this go, our love
Use the past as ammunition
Or we could let this grow, our love
All we have to do is listen, just listen
Remember when we used to trust each other
And when we swore we’d leave the games aside?
Remember when our instincts drew us closer
When we both chose love instead of pride
What would our love say now if it were watching?
Most likely tell us both we should grow up
What would our love say now?
What would our love say now?
Keep trying
